figuring out motherhood....

I wanted to write down somethings that i want to remember about this first 6 weeks of motherhood... i have been terrible about writing down anything because here i am nursing and trying to type one handed, but i know these last few weeks are ones i never want to forget! Here are some things i want to remember ;
being a mom is.....
1. not getting any sleep and when the baby finally falls asleep you you wake up.just to make sure they are still breathing (so sleepless nights no matter what!)
2. you never knew how much you could possibly love your baby.. sometimes my heart feels like it will explode
3. everytime i see jed hold our george.. i fall in love with him all over again.
4. my prayers have changed alot.. i now pray for no more tummy aches, that he will have poopy diapers, that he will gain enough weight each week, that my milk will keep coming, and for a happy healthy baby.
5, i worry about what is ahead of george in his life.. trials, etc. and pray that i will be the mom i should be.
6. i miss george even when he is just in his car seat...pretty pathetic i know, but true.
7. i have learned that rocking chairs really are made for the purpose of motherhood.. we rock till we are dizzy around here.
8. i have learned that cribs are a waste of money...colicky baby,YOU are THE port a crib.
9. i appreciate a little nap here and there like never before.
10. when his tummy hurts, so does my heart.. there have been quite a few times in the middle of the night in the rocking chair i have rocked him while he screams.. i have to admit i cry along with him and finally I understand why my mom said she wishes she could take the pain and struggles for her children. ITS TRUE.
11. I realize I knew not as much as I once thought I did about babies and motherhood... it is just something you jump into and you learn right along with the baby!
12. i love to look at georges little features and how perfect they are and I am reminded how perfect our Heavenly Fathers plan really is. These little spirits are pretty special.
13. I loved watching Jed turn into a dad... He used to think new borns were boring, now he has his own and he can't get enough of him. He is the cutest dad/husband in the world.
14. I feel so extremely blessed and grateful for little george... He adds so much to both jed and I in every single way.
15. I have learned there is absolutely no such thing as a schedule.... we eat when we want, we sleep when we want, and we have no guarantees for anything else.
16. You learn that you are alot more patient then you once thought you were...
17. you learn that you can handle a messier house than you once thought you could.
18. Walmart diapers don't get the job done... cheap but terrible!
19. I learned that the washing machine should constantly be running to keep up with it... but it isn't and I am usually behind.
20. I learned that the best thing in the world is to hold your little baby and cuddle him.
21. I learned how much I enjoy a little smile.. George started smiling at 4 1/2 weeks and he makes you work hard for them! So I spend most my day trying to earn as many smiles as I possibly can.
22. I have learned to bounce, and rock, and sway at all times... even when I don't have a baby in my arms. Just feels natural these days.
23. I am grateful for modern medicine that can help George feel a little bit better. it stinks knowing you cant just fix every thing for babies. also I am grateful for c-sections because what would I have done without one? It truly is amazing the things they could do!
24. I learned that this motherhood stuff is harder than you think... it makes you realize how much you need your own mother when you become one. She is my go-to woman. She helps me realize what I need to do.
25. Showers are no longer part of your morning routine... they are a privledge and you fit them in when ever you can. And make up on is a pretty successful day!
26. I have learned that there is no such thing as a normal day for us. Everyday as much as it seems the same it is always changing.
27. I have learned that basically that my life has really changed. It will never ever be the same, and I never want it to be either. It is so much better this way!
28. I am reminded daily how much I have to be grateful for. I spent my whole life wishing and hoping that someday I would be able to finally be a wife and a mother. Now I am both and I could not be happier! Life is GOOD!

Excuse the lack of punctuation... I am not so good at typing one handed.
PEACE OUT